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19 year old male in love with Drag Queens and Pokemon.
Posted on 28th Jul at 4:25 AM

I believed when they told me I was the most important, that they’d never let me go, that they’d give up their habits for me. I believed in that. And now the price I pay is to be bogged down by thoughts of nothing but how much I want to die.

Posted on 28th Jul at 4:20 AM

It’s all because I was stupid enough to believe someone again when they told me they’d never leave me. 

Posted on 28th Jul at 4:19 AM

I am not usually the type to show my friends, the people I’m around, how bad my depression is. There is only one person I am open to about it, he is a good friend, but I have not talked with him a lot lately. It is because it is hard to find the motivation to pick up my hands to type. I slept for 17 hours today just because I didn’t want to get up and be alive. The joy of life has become nothing but hours that have extended to feel like days. And it is all my fault.

Posted on 28th Jul at 4:18 AM

I remember listening to this song back in February starting to feel just a little bit down that maybe I’d be replaced, forgotten, I’d be gotten rid of. Before I moved to Phoenix, before the first fight. Now that all of my nightmares have come to life I listen to it with all of my suicidal intention in hopes it will clear those thoughts enough to live until the ‘morrow.

Posted on 28th Jul at 4:16 AM

The songs take me back to my childhood when what made me happy was going out to eat at burger king and what made me sad was having a bedtime.
In my adulthood I learned what it is, what it meant to let someone be so important to you their every move effects how you feel. I miss the days of getting high on life, where every day there was enough happiness I couldn’t wait to live more, now my days are in black and white. I feel no reason to see in color anymore.  and as the days go by it gets harder and harder to keep myself happy with my lies, it gets harder and harder to keep on finding reasons to fight. I wish I was more brave, I wish I was more strong, I wish I was worth more effort than I am.

Posted on 28th Jul at 4:15 AM

On lonely nights like this the world is so good at finding me reasons to contemplate the why’s and why not’s of the question of do I deserve to live another day?

Posted on 27th Jul at 11:16 PM, with 270,751 notes


do you ever just smell an old perfume, or hear an old song, or pass an old hangout spot and kinda break inside for a couple minutes

Posted on 27th Jul at 10:35 PM, with 248,251 notes


here’s a list of what i’d like to do with you:

  • hug
  • go on walks while holding hands
  • smile
  • kiss
  • cuddle
  • have cute little dates
  • have movie nights
  • take adorable pictures
  • go new places
  • try new things
  • fall in love
  • look at the stars
  • do everything i was ever scared to do alone.
Posted on 27th Jul at 10:23 PM

I’m the person that will leave with a laughter that warms the hearts of all that hear it and attempt suicide 15 minutes later when i’m alone.

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